November... is christmas really coming?

Hi hei hola hello again

As you know, I haven't been that productive here in my blog during November. Took a break from writing, tried to keep at least myself on the same page with me. The truth with it is that I've been dealing with a terrible tiredness (involving a few breakdowns) and I just haven't felt like writing. Trying to keep this blog as real as possible, without hiding any problems, so if you find that interesting, keep on reading. Now things are going a bit better than before and I thought I'd write something here quickly. Let's see how this evolves. 

Are you even tired?

As I said, I have been incredibly tired now during November. This would probably be normal if I was in Finland since Kaamosmasennus is a real thing, and the lack of sunlight does actually affect you in ways you can't even imagine / remember before it starts to affect you, again. But here in Chile the sunlight is on a really decent level so this just can't be about seasonal depression. 

But like I can't be that tired can I? Oh but I am. I sleep about 7 to 8 hours per night during the week, and during weekends even more, yet I still have been falling asleep on classes. I haven't been this tired since my knee surgeries, but at least then I knew that my tiredness was combined by medication and pain, and I pretty much couldn't sleep at all (compared to now I'm sleeping all the time). It's getting better now though, but it's been quite rough. More or less related to the tiredness, November has brought me a lot of indifference about different things, homesickness and breakdowns. 

Just an emotional rollercoaster

In the beginning of November, I received a package from Finland. It was from my family and brought here by a family friend who travelled to Santiago for his work. In the package there was my mom's old jeans from the 80's (I broke my only pair of jeans and I had told her to send them to me, so that was nice) which were quite fitting for me actually, obviously chocolate from Fazer (<3) and 4 letters, from my mom, dad, sister and my grandma. As I was reading the letters, I had my first breakdown here, spent about half an hour crying on the bathroom floor. Oh well I knew it was coming some day, in the end, exchange is pretty much just a gigantic emotional rollercoaster. After that day I took it as my responsibility to write my family some letters back, and I worked on them during schooldays and afternoons and pretty much on every occasion I had. Then before I got to sending them, the Finnish post offices went on strike for better contracts. (or that's what I understood) Even though this isn't the first time this happens, I hope it gets settled soon since I'd really like to get my mail to (and from) Finland. Anyway, I've had maybe two (or three?) breakdowns after the letters, from which the latest one was last weekend. Not getting in to details but things are getting better, the rollercoaster is on it's way up. 

Christmas is coming???

Ok but is christmas really less than a month away? It certainly does not feel like it with the temperatures getting more close to +35°C than +30°C. Definitely not even comparable to the pre-christmas weather we have in Finland. I guess I have to just get used to the heat. Not complaining though, I prefer summer over winter anyway. One thing that made me laugh a bit though, yesterday (Monday) was a bit colder, about +17°C, cloudy, windy, and you know, colder. I heard a lot of people say something like "oh it's so cold, where did our summer go? During summer it isn't usually this cold." Y'all that made me smile since summer in Finland? Oh boy that thing is a full on joke. One day it can be +30°C and the next day less than +9°C and that just goes on unpredictably for the whole summer. Oh well that's apparently not the case here.

My summer vacation is starting in less than 2 weeks oh gosh I don't know how to feel. Trying to get rid of this tiredness now, see you in a couple of weeks. Or maybe I'll do something special for Finland's independence day. Who knows.

Saara